[Though, it's not like it stopped when you stopped being a teenager. Judging by the mess Sandra-Lynn had made of things pursuing Garthy (and his own father's allusions to be, ah, very active in that area as a young adult) it's clear to Riz that grown-ups don't care any less about sex than teenagers do. Which is a problem because it means the rest of the world isn't just going to grow out of being obsessed with kissing either.]
[Mando is actually a little amused by that response. Riz isn't wrong, of course, but it's been awhile since Mando hung out with a gang of teenagers. Riz, little ball of nerves and conspiracy that he is, is the exception.]
But with adults too. I've met intelligent species that reproduce with spoors and never see another of their own kind.
[Intelligent might be a slight oversell, but Sarlaccs are close enough, right?]
[He loves the bad kids, and he's certainly been struck by the impulse to purr when he is very relaxed in their presence (not that it is always very easy for him to relax) but so far, he's clamped down on it. It's just... after so long of clamping down on overt goblin traits, it's hard to let go of it. And even if a logical part of him knows the rest of the bad kids wouldn't mind them (Fig had clearly thought his hissing was cool), a small part of him still worries that being too much of a goblin will be a nuisance somehow, and will have them rethinking their friendship with him.
Which, again, he knows they won't! But insecurities.]
Maybe you'll get a chance someday. I think they'd like it.
[Mando clearly comes from a more egalitarian world, where different species and races are more or less accepted. He also has the privilege of strutting around being a Mandalorian, and only the very, very confident ever try to mess with Mandalorians.]
[Would being a human be easier sometimes? Probably yeah. Humans have to deal with a lot less racism. And being such a dominant group in his world, the world is, quite literally, made for them. They don't have to scramble to get on a chair, or use a step-stool to reach the sink.
But despite that, Riz doesn't want to be a human. Whatever bigoted thoughts people might have about goblins, he likes being a goblin. He likes having claws and fangs and a tail. He likes looking like his parents. He likes being him.]
It's just-- It doesn't feel right, you know? If I look in a mirror and stuff. It's just not right.
[Not that Riz looks in mirrors a lot, not since Baron. But if he catches a glimpse of his reflection here, in a shop window, or from the corner of his eye, it never feels like him. It always just feels like he's looking at someone else.]
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What, are there no teenagers where you are from?
[Though, it's not like it stopped when you stopped being a teenager. Judging by the mess Sandra-Lynn had made of things pursuing Garthy (and his own father's allusions to be, ah, very active in that area as a young adult) it's clear to Riz that grown-ups don't care any less about sex than teenagers do. Which is a problem because it means the rest of the world isn't just going to grow out of being obsessed with kissing either.]
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[Mando is actually a little amused by that response. Riz isn't wrong, of course, but it's been awhile since Mando hung out with a gang of teenagers. Riz, little ball of nerves and conspiracy that he is, is the exception.]
But with adults too. I've met intelligent species that reproduce with spoors and never see another of their own kind.
[Intelligent might be a slight oversell, but Sarlaccs are close enough, right?]
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Really? That sounds nice.
[It really does! If only everybody else just reproduced with spores, then nobody would care about kissing all this much, right?]
I bet Mandalorians don't even kiss...
[Cause. The helmets. Like what, do they just bonk them together?]
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No, we don't.
[Because of the helmets.]
We might touch the forehead of our helmets together to show affection, but that's all.
[Although those other, weird Mandalorians who take their helmets off probably kiss, but Mando is just not going to mention them.]
You don't need to kiss to show someone you care about them.
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He nods (even though Mando can't see) when he says that Mandalorians put their heads together. Makes sense.]
Goblins purr. Just with other goblins though. You can't-- it's not good to stand out in public.
[Not when almost every other race already looks down on them.]
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[Mando scratches behind Mudhorn's ears.]
Have you ever purred around your friends?
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[He loves the bad kids, and he's certainly been struck by the impulse to purr when he is very relaxed in their presence (not that it is always very easy for him to relax) but so far, he's clamped down on it. It's just... after so long of clamping down on overt goblin traits, it's hard to let go of it. And even if a logical part of him knows the rest of the bad kids wouldn't mind them (Fig had clearly thought his hissing was cool), a small part of him still worries that being too much of a goblin will be a nuisance somehow, and will have them rethinking their friendship with him.
Which, again, he knows they won't! But insecurities.]
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[Mando clearly comes from a more egalitarian world, where different species and races are more or less accepted. He also has the privilege of strutting around being a Mandalorian, and only the very, very confident ever try to mess with Mandalorians.]
Do you miss being a goblin?
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[Would being a human be easier sometimes? Probably yeah. Humans have to deal with a lot less racism. And being such a dominant group in his world, the world is, quite literally, made for them. They don't have to scramble to get on a chair, or use a step-stool to reach the sink.
But despite that, Riz doesn't want to be a human. Whatever bigoted thoughts people might have about goblins, he likes being a goblin. He likes having claws and fangs and a tail. He likes looking like his parents. He likes being him.]
It's just-- It doesn't feel right, you know? If I look in a mirror and stuff. It's just not right.
[Not that Riz looks in mirrors a lot, not since Baron. But if he catches a glimpse of his reflection here, in a shop window, or from the corner of his eye, it never feels like him. It always just feels like he's looking at someone else.]
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[It's not the same, and Mando knows it, but he can relate on some level.]
I'd feel the same if I ever lost my helmet.
[Foreshadowing!]
I think if something feels right to you, it doesn't need to be questioned. It's just a part of who you are.