I'm told that however long we spend here, it's like no time at all passes at home. So whatever is coming, is coming, and can't be changed.
[But that doesn't really answer her question, does it? Mando takes a few minutes to think before he continues.]
I have a life I've built here, and I'm going to live it and enjoy it for as long as I can. But I have a life back home too, and things to get back to. When it's time, I'll enjoy that too.
We can have both here, Bo. We can live a life without war or conflict, and then someday go home and presumably beat on the Pyke Syndicate for some patch of sand on Tattooine.
This place, and its peace... it takes time to get used to. We both grew up with war constantly at our backs. It makes it hard to get used to peace. I know I kept waiting for a war to break out for months when I first arrived.
And then one day... I wasn't. I woke up, and I made plans for the day, and none of them involved being ready for the war I was sure would break out at any minute. I just had my day, and there was no war. There was no war the next day either.
[Time and circumstances will do that of course. But occasionally it was a little jarring.]
I am used to war, that’s true, and throwing these pokemon into battle is the only thing that feels relatively normal.
It’s not that I don’t want peace, but this world is so contrary to everything it means to be Mandalorian. Though what I miss most is being among our people. Here it’s just me and you.
[Her whole identity was serving her people, and without that, she feels adrift.]
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[But that doesn't really answer her question, does it? Mando takes a few minutes to think before he continues.]
I have a life I've built here, and I'm going to live it and enjoy it for as long as I can. But I have a life back home too, and things to get back to. When it's time, I'll enjoy that too.
We can have both here, Bo. We can live a life without war or conflict, and then someday go home and presumably beat on the Pyke Syndicate for some patch of sand on Tattooine.
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[She doesn't disbelieve the people who have experienced it, but there's always this nagging doubt.]
I don't think I can have the kind of life you have here. I'm just passing the time until I can go back. Which might be years from now.
[She's not satisfied with how things are for her here. It might be peaceful, but its not what she wants.]
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This place, and its peace... it takes time to get used to. We both grew up with war constantly at our backs. It makes it hard to get used to peace. I know I kept waiting for a war to break out for months when I first arrived.
And then one day... I wasn't. I woke up, and I made plans for the day, and none of them involved being ready for the war I was sure would break out at any minute. I just had my day, and there was no war. There was no war the next day either.
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[Time and circumstances will do that of course. But occasionally it was a little jarring.]
I am used to war, that’s true, and throwing these pokemon into battle is the only thing that feels relatively normal.
It’s not that I don’t want peace, but this world is so contrary to everything it means to be Mandalorian. Though what I miss most is being among our people. Here it’s just me and you.
[Her whole identity was serving her people, and without that, she feels adrift.]
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It is, but there are different kinds of battles, aren't there? Maybe you're fighting a new one and just haven't figured out who your opponent is yet.
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[She doesn’t know what to say other than that. This conversation having made her weary and discouraged.]